(Politics) 20 points no longer valid : Salleh

Now it is time for political issue peeps!

To be honest, I love politics as much as my father. I know a little bit about politics because my father is a strongest Barisan Nasional follower in my area. And yes, he is one of them. 

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Dear peeps, what is your choice this year? Who will be elected? I don’t know either as the BN seems like going a rough time where so many peoples (I mean it, a lot) put them under pressure. It is their choice; it is our power to achieve the better than before. FYI, I am also a registered voter for this year and I do also not feeling satisfied with the BN. Especially for Sabah. I always talks and fight with my father at home (how I miss the moment!) about how BN handle the future in Sabah. At first, my father always says something good about BN and I was like “OH Gosh”, and I ended up showing the proofs that was published via Facebook, goggling, and I do say about my hometown. I already live for 22 years old and living 15 years with the promised from the “BN representative” that they will develop the very poor infrastructure and development in Sabah, specifically Ranau Town. 

Have you go there before? I told you, Ranau is a very nice town to live on but only for Ranau’s people! Do you got what I mean? Yeah hell no, Ranau is a very poor hometown, with a very poor infrastructure and old town where no developments done. Actually it wasn’t like “nothing at all” but the developments made there isn’t suitable as the name of BN. BN itself bring it owns big future but the future seems like wasn’t really including Ranau. For the triangle developments in Sabah, Ranau Town was excluded (goggle it peeps if you don’t believe). Keningau is ok, but if you go to Keningau, you might end up saying “are the developments for the society? As there are so many PTI there”. 

And I told you peeps, once time I talks with friends (I don’t really remember, but in Tawau Town), there was a time she talk with the father of her student who driving DMAX yo! After a short talk, the father said something which was actually shocked my friend. The well said is like this, “okay lah, aku maw pigi tunaikan tugas dulu, diabilang aku mesti undi BN sebab diaorang sudah bagi aku IC”. OMG! I don’t really believe it but my friend isn’t someone who interested in politics (yeah, she is a teacher anyway), so why would she cheat on me. Is it really happened? I don’t know. But one of my friend also non-pure-Sabahan who now studying in UMS. Her father still alive, but in their IC, their mother is known as a single mother (WTH)! And told you, the IC wasn’t really belong to her mother but her lucky, she successfully officially registered as Sabahan via the “moving registration” that was once held in Sabah. 

(Personally I believe, this is the time when so many people got their IC even though they weren’t local Sabahan). It was good, but at one point it brought together its own huge disadvantages where someone could misuses their power to gives the IC to someone who wasn’t Sabahan.  I believe so!

Ok, enough with the IC peeps. If I continue, a day isn’t enough to write on. So many problems happened and happen in Sabah as consequences of the PATI and lucky-I-got-IC people. So many! 

And just now I read about this news from Berita Harian Online with the title of “Jangan politikkan dokumen 20 Perkara: Salleh”. Hell no, I will still stand for that 20 matters!! I don’t give a damn thing about the bersih nor ni kali lah or any other non-government parties. But please, some of their points were more than a strong enough for people to be upset about our government. This is the first time I am officially registered as a voter, and I do feeling loose to vote for BN this time around. Even though my family is a strong follower of the government since USNO but this is the future. If we just follow the future ruled by the BN without any hesitation, how is our life for the next four years?

Poor Sabahan, poor Ranau’s people. 

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There are so many disadvantages in BN now, so many I couldn’t lists here. But, above all I think I will still put an “X” for BN as thanks for the life I live on until now. For the PTPTN I used and for the education they’d provided. No matter how I agree the the “ni kali lah” party or the “bersih” party, I will still choose BN for the others still cannot overpass their strength. BN is great so far but surely there are still lots of things/matters they need to improved! Yes, a lot of!! Especially in Sabah, I think the PRU this time around will be a very tough one for BN. Even my father, the great and a very loyal follower of BN say so. Hurmm, I think I will end my entry for today. My friend said it was too long but I don’t care, this is my blog anyway. I am free to write what I want and I stressed it again here peeps, no print-screen or citation allowed from this site!! Don’t misused my blog entries! Bye...

Rotten Annoying Bus Conductor!

OMG! I wrote these words again. I really can't breathe normal now, so angry and full with hatred. OMG, please calm me down God. I really can't accept the bad manner of the 1Borneo bus conductor. Not the service from 1Borneo Hypermall actually, but the personal buses to Sepanggar. I never encountered something like that but today.

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Here is the story, we want to go home but the bus at that time was already full and we don't want to sits separately, the three of us. So we decided to wait for the next bus but, one from the three buses conductors starting to looks annoyed towards us and starting his harsh, I mean it! Real rude words. Hey, it is customers’ rights to choose the best and fitted one to them bah. Isn’t it peeps? I was so angry just now, and I am remembered his face. I swear I will never use their services next time if I see his face. I said it! I wouldn’t. Yeah, this is me. I am a person who can’t accept rude says from other without bases. I thought we didn’t do any wrong since we just want to use the next bus, and it wasn’t like we didn’t want to use their services but not that full-cramped bus.

Peeps, don’t be like me okay. And if someday we suddenly meet, please don’t do same. I can’t accept people talk’s nonsense bad about me without bases. I am a person who will stand till the end if I am right, and I never ashamed to admit my faults (if so) and I do ask for forgiveness with my own self. I do! But hey, don’t if I am not wrong, then please be ready for a battle of tongue-war. Yes, this bad tempered has never leave me even though I’ve tried so many times (at least it become lesser nowadays) but hey I think this is the real me anyway.

Do you ever feels or encountered something like this before peeps? Huh, I hope NO because it was really hurts our pride. It is true! I don’t know you but this is what I feel just now. I hate those people with that bad manner. I really can’t accept it peeps huhuhu. Thanks, I still can control my tongue for that person seems like “pilak”. My mum used to say, “don’t find any reason to fight with them, they didn’t care to kill us”. Yes, it is so true and happened in Sabah. If you ever encountered something like this in Sabah, please think twice before you launch the war. I mean it.

Hurm, I think this is enough for this entry. Ohya, forget to mention. I am a last year student this year (amen) and the church I always go is conducting farewell party this evening. I still can’t believe that I will graduate this year but hey, this is real men, I will surely graduate this end of year (AMEN). 

Mode: happy and anxiety, looking forwards for this evening farewell party.

Hups, I feel relieved after pouring all my hatred in this blog of mine just now. I think, for me blogging is great, after all, this is my online diary. Hehe. Have a nice evening guy, hope for the best for tomorrow. Sayonara!

Friends are God’s way of taking care of us

Holla holla again peeps! First of all, I want to announce here that I'd done my VIVA (presentation of my final year project). Thanks God, it turn out well!! hehe What a really great relieved I feels just now. Plus I'd fully enjoyed my free day today. Even though I felt a little bit disappointed because we'd cancelled the karaoke plan after VIVA + haven't attend the farewell party to my great respectful lecturer _DR.HOW_I really want to be there with them last evening! I surely have a lot to tell her, how much she'd inspired me in doing my FYP. She even made me cried in my first FYP's presentation last year, and yes, it taught me a lot. THANKS so damned much DR.HOW. REALLY! Omg, such a long introduction isn't it hahaha..nevermind. lets continue to the main entry for today. 

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I have a lot of friends!!!!

So many friend I can't listed here ( for it was a very long lists to write here).

I really feels that, God is so awesome. He really considered our feeling. Isn't it so >speechless<, for He even thought about this little (but important) relationship? Wohaa, I feels so blessed for He have gives me a lot of friends. Someone who love you, miss you, share with you, laugh and cry together, and even a friend who stabbed you from behind. Yeah, above all it teach me to learn about life and grow up faster. 

Have you had any friends like that???

wahh, what a relationship I've now. Thanks God for giving me opportunity to have friends!! Really thanks.

Hurm, but this entry today is written as I suddenly remembered someone who really important in my life. 

A friend that I love so much, I care so much, and a person who I can't afford to be separated with. 

But, its seems like we weren't in that relationship anymore nowadays. Whose faults? I don't know either. You know peeps, I really feel hurts when she told me (via fb) that she had engaged. I was really sad and yes, I cried. Why? Why she didn't tell me earlier? Why she didn't invite me? But to think about it again, we have been so distant lately. 

Is it my faults?

I don't know either.

Back to years ago, we really had a very close BFF. Whoever, Wherever and whatever happen, it involved both of us. Yeah, we even nearly missed the exam paper once. Reason? I accompanied her dressing up her hair. She was so cute on that day. Plus, we had done so many things together. Enjoyed, laughing and crying together. I still remember, when I cried at our Teachers day lunch, she is the one who understand me the most. It isn't like the other friends didn't but, maybe it was because she is my BFF, that is why I felts her concern.

She even cried when we decided to put a distance in our friendship for the sake of our studies. Yeah, our exam results wasn't good but we really need to pass the PMR exam. Must! We didn't want people said behind us, "serve your right, rock annoying girls". So, here is the story. When the PMR exam was just around the corner, we suddenly realized that we'd played so much, forgetting about studies. So one day, we decided to put a distance while in the class. She sit near the teacher's table while I stayed near the entrance door. She cried, I didn't ( so far I remembered ). Back to those days, crying in front others students is a very unacceptable manner for me, so I didn't cry. But, it isn't like I didn't cried at all, in fact I cried a lot at home. I miss our BFF relationship so damned much. And thanks God, we made it. Our PMR result allowed us to entered the Pure Science Stream Class.

But, in the middle of it, she had moved to Labuan with her family. What a very blue day for me. The days before she went to Labuan, she asked to met with me. I go and I prepared a speech and gifts for her indeed but I handled it wrongly. I didn't answer her calls wisely, and I simply said "ok, just go" something like that. But she insisted on meeting me, and she waited me for hours. 

I went home but she was there, waiting for me at our bus stop station. It was really a hurtful for me to see her. I really don't want to see her! really! Because I don't want to cry in front others people in the city. So I end up hurting her pride by simply looking at her without any words. How stupid I am isn't. The gifts and speech I'd prepared, I still have it in my room in the mean time. It was still there until nowadays. My boyfriend even ask why don't me just give it to her nowadays? Huh, what a thought. I do thought about it, and I simply put it my mind that I'll surprised her in her engagement day. I will surely attend her engagement and wedding ( I decided before ). But I lost that time, I didn't go. I don't know. 

I really sad, and I do feel hurts for she didn't invite me. Huh, it might also because of me peeps. After years, I finally met her when I further study at Labuan Matriculation College. The first time I met her, I was so damned >speechless<. What a great I am! Stupid! I didn't greet her well. It was so awkward! And again I spoiled it. I couldn't say what I really want to say. Of how much I care and how much I hurts when she moving away from my side. ( well, a girl with a girl relationship, a healthy relationship, NOT LESBIAN okay! remember that peeps)

So, after that we were like strangers. 

until now

yes, until now

wuhuuu peeps, I think I had write a lot for this entry. 

As for my conclusion (effect from doing the thesis), don't loss your BFF because you don't have words to describe you feeling. Just follow your heart, speak it louder. Don't loss a friend that you really enjoyed with. Don't miss the chances. 

anywhere, may God bless you 

this so called fellow

"EVIE SANIEL"

may your life is full with God's awesome love. 

Love form this far, WAT =)

Let the Music tell the Love stories

holla peeps hehehehe..

"Speechless" is the right word to expressed myself just now...since it has been a long time I didn't update my blog. Yeah, see my status above there? I was so damned full and busied by this so called thesis. The thesis had been submitted but still, I need to present it this coming Thursday. Yupz, I haven't prepare yet but thanks God, I am on my track just now. Okay, end it here. Continue about this so called "Love story". Yeah, another love story I live on, I feels of in every moment of the day. To begin with, I am so confused by these well-mixed feeling today, yesterday and the day before. Yep, he is too far away from me now. Too far. Really too big distance between us now. No call, No sms and No facebook. What a real far distance love we were living. Sometime I feels like what a dummy I am for being so loyal with him. But to think about it again, I am not going to let go the 6 years we had made together. 

This long distance is killing me!! wohaa, do you ever feels like this? 

hurmm, I want to write it with my own words but 

!!LET THE MUSIC TELL THE LOVE STORIES!!

From the girl @ me:

Song Title : Long Distance

By : Bruno Mars

There's only so many songs

That I can sing to pass the time

And I'm running out of things to do

To get you off my mind

Ooohh,no

All i have is this picture in a frame

That I hold close to see your face every day

With you is where I'd rather be

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard 

Where we are,where we are

You're so far,this long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard 

Where we are,where we are

You're so far,this long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours

And the hours feel like days

While I'm away

You know right now I can't be home

But I'm coming home soon,coming home soon

All i have is this picture in a frame

That I hold close to see your face again

With you is where I'd rather be

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

Can you hear me crying?

Can you hear me crying?

Can you hear me crying?

With you is where I'd rather be

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard 

Where we are,where we are

You're so far,this long distance is killing me

It's so hard,it's so hard 

Where we are,where we are

You're so far,this long distance is killing me

There's only so many songs

That I can sing to pass the time....

and the man answered it

Title : Home

By : Michael Buble

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

'Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

Huh, thanks for the love songs. Let the Music tell the Love stories. You and Me.

We Will Persevere

Distance may cause many a tear
And it may also bring fear
But if our love is clear
It will never disappear
Whether we are far or near
We will persevere
For with a love deep and sincere
We will always be each other's dear.

Unbearable LOVE

peeps!!

I don't know peeps, it was like just pop into my heart just now. I never imagined if the years that we'd made might confront these days, where the feeling of frustrated, emptiness, sadness, and many more well-mixed together to formulate the so called sorrow-recipe. Where to begin with, I don't know either. Where to start with, I can't explain either. It was just this sorrow-recipe slowly but eventually poisoning myself. 6 years ago, to meet him in the first place was just like yesterday, and we'd made so many memories together in the mean times but until today, it never cross in my mind that it will be back to the way we'd started this relationship, STRANGERS. I simply don't know what was wrong these days. No days without larva-words, no days without fully understanding to each other and no days without shouting to each other. But hey, above all, I still can smile and be happy, yup, at least I AM still trying to be happy, accepting all the changes, the behaviors and I am not willing to let go that "6 Years" just like that. Six years isn't a number only, it holds our strengths and faithful towards our relationship. I cannot accept to end it that way for I had tried my very best to be loyal to him, never opening any space for other guys ( even though I still love my first love ) but I wasn't sure, I was somehow feels like the relationship turn to STRANGERS. 

Do you ever feel like me?

what do you do next?

DO you have any ideas of what the best step I should take?

I am to way to young in love to fully understand it.

yep, nobody knows better about love at the first place..

huhuhu